Cancer - From a Child's Perspective
(From the diary of a GBM Grade 1V brain tumor patient's daughter )
CANCER - From a child's perspective
I was a thirteen year old, happy go lucky girl studying in a boarding school. Nestled within a comfortable and protective environment,I was oblivious to all the harsh realities people face in the real world. At that stage of my life I had no idea as to what it meant to be diagnosed with cancer. I encountered the word cancer for the very first time in a movie that had been organized for us girls who stayed back in school during the summer vacations as some parents were unable to pick us up because of their own personal reasons. Our excitement turned into tears as we began to watch the movie. It was a true story. The movie was about a little girl who was diagnosed with cancer. Blood cancer, to be more precise. I extracted bits of information about cancer from the movie itself.
I deduced from the story that a person who is afflicted with cancer has very slim chances, almost none at all, of being cured. Since twhis girl in the movie did not survive, I was convinced of that .Since there is no cure, one has to die. What frightened me the most was the rapid loss of her beautiful hair. It was heart wrenching to see her lose it gradually and then in bunches. My strength crumbled just looking at her.
Imagine what she must have gone through. She shed all her hair and it had frightened me. My second deduction was that one sheds all their hair if detected with cancer. Thereafter, she always wore a cap. After filtering all the information I got from the movie, I inferred that once you got cancer, there was no cure for it and eventually one had to die. It was a hopeless and helpless situation to be in . Cancer deprives the whole family of leading a normal life and. . The girl's father. He is totally devastated when he learns about the illness from the doctor. Yet,when he stands face to face with his daughter, he puts up a brave front every time.
Alone, he breaks down and always asks God as to why he had picked his little girl to suffer . Through his pain I learnt that cancer leaves your loved ones totally shattered and helpless. It took me a while to get over this disease known as cancer,but not before it took its toll on me. Out of the blue came some unpleasant thoughts. Since I loved my father the most ,I worried for him for the first time in my life .What if my father gets cancer ? I shuddered to think of any such situation. At the time, I blocked out such disturbing thoughts. I consoled myself by thinking that this would never happen to my father or mother.
Human nature tends to dismiss the thought of any unpleasant incident happening to self or your loved ones. We are totally alienated to the real pain a cancer patient and his loved ones go hrough. We assume it won't happen to us or any of our loved ones. These things happen to others. Little did I know then, that I was wrong.
Very, very wrong.
(To be continued) ......